so who thinks life is over rated. who thinks most of what there telling me is sh**. its true. your saposed to be motervated and together but theres a girl at home who has troble standing up straight and a man who turened out like the father that isnt his. the world is unfair and thats shouldnt be a suprise. sertain people still make me angry. they try so hard to get in contact with me and i was thinking of getting back in touch with them but then i went to their page and it just made me angry again. so its over. im giving up smoking. the police are basterds and have no respec to average people. i hate the way the government has its rules and no room for someone who is different. someone who isnt quite the same. im still looking for the person who left their bike at my house and a way to work things out. my love life is great thoe. make 6 months and still loving every day together and every phone conversation. he makes me feel a lot better just talking about him. i suddenly remember that i have a beautifull family that are great to talk to and look after me as much as possable. i want to get out of here but theres still half and hour to go. all these people seem to be better than me at this. the music seems good. i understand if you stoped reading this cos i know its boring. its like my old diarys, im shure they must be boring to every one else but i love reaading them and thinking about how i was such a dick head or when i was funny or sad and why. iv got to find my place in life and where i fit and what i like to do but untill then i just have to deal with the upps the downs and the inbetweens. i dont realy drink any moor and when i do its on the weekends these days. i like ti that way. i had a drink of champagn the other day. i used to love champagn but when i tasted it i wondered how i usedto drink it. it was discusting and made my tummy hurt. it was horroble. i know iv hurt some people in the last 6 months and i probably will always hurt someone in the world but they have other people to be their friends. im not the most important person in the world so they should get on with their lives. take a step and move the moutain. f the world and be your self. if god is real he/she must hate us. we're selfish and spitfull and hate full and uncaring and viscious and bitchy and merderous and i hate us at times. on the other hand some one the other day told me where i can get free food and said she could drive me around if i needed it. so some times we can be nice at just the right time. whats wrong with us. love from the lady in crazy dazy pants